Things that make me go GGGGRRRRR!!!!!

you know one of the things that I really hate... People that exploit other people for their own sense of self-righteousness. Why is it that when a person is alive, people barely know them, but as soon as they are dead everyone suddenly 'used to be' their friend or want to be supportive. That really annoys me, recently a gentleman I knew died, and now MSN you see things like RIP _________, and you talk to people and they all just want to be hung up on the topic of his death. I have never heard these people speak of him before, and I have never seen these people with him before. Granted it is possible, seeing as he and I lived in different circles for the past few years, I am willing to concede that fact. but there was never a real concern for him in life, but now that he is gone they want to post him on their MSN as if he is some type of trophy. Sadly, I find this type of behavior to be common amongst people, I speak mostly for the culture to which I belong, but it seems to be a universal trait. We exploit other peoples misfortunes to feed on our own self-righteousness. It is like a socially accepted thing to do.

This particular person was no saint. He was involved in many things that your typical upstanding member of community would not dream of participating in, and some of these people that are now praising him and mourning him are "good Christians". Yet what can they say they did for him while he was alive? He suffered alone when he was alive, leading a life that lead to a dead end, and now that he is dead... all of a sudden they all have the desire and the drive to be supportive of him.

When I die I only want my family and my closest friends at my funeral. In fact I would prefer it not be announced. That way all the hypocrites will not get a chance to feed off of my misfortune.

Why can't we learn to love and support in life rather than waste our energy on the dead. Our selfish displays of caring mean nothing to those now passed. We just seek to appease our own guilt for not having done our jobs while they were still with us.

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So this marks the beginning of a fresh new journey. More like trying to pick up pieces of a distant past. I don't even know what I am talking about, but as I heard in a movie once... just write. Let the words come to you.. hopefully amongst the gibberish I can begin to experience true expression.