Sunday, June 19, 2011

Dance inside of me...

I love your eyes
The way they smile
They dance inside of me.
They tickle the essence of my existence,
They dance inside of me

I adore your eyes
Hidden beneath, a mystery sweet
They dance inside of me
The tender carress of your gentle gaze
They dance inside of me

I want your eyes
Buried beneath the sinews of my being
Your lips compliment, and curve in praise to they
That dance inside of me

Though miles away
Truth still remains

and they dance inside of me

While you sleep...

I kiss your memory while you sleep
because you are far away from me
but one day soon
this distance will be far removed
and we'll be embraced by destiny

primer amor perdido....

La manera que te he amado...
nunca he sentido eso antes...

La manera que te he adorado
nunca he vuelto a sentir

Ya que no sientes lo mismo,
no se que es lo que siento hacia ti
pero si se que nunca quiero sentir menos por otra

nick nacks of knit knots


If one cannot knit and not knot one should not knit,
cause if one does not knit then one cannot knit knots
but to knit nets one needs knots
A true master only knits knots in nets.
for if they have not knots you have not knit nets

Mienteme mi amor

Mienteme mi amor
mi corazoncito... ya extrana el dolor
mienteme mi amor... quiero k me mientas.

siempre te daba mi amor desnudo...
que nunca llevaba ropa de culpa
pero tu siempre andabas vestida...

mi almohada queda con el olor de tu presencia
pero ya ese olor se va desvaneciendo
igual que los sentimientos que nunca me regalaste
y ya extrano que me mientas...

siempre pensaba que yo he tenido
contigo
un amor verdadero
pero esa mentira
k nunca me dejaba
me hacia sentir pena
lloraba y lloraba

mienteme mi amor!!

grounded

I want to fly...
where to?
just fly...
I just want to fly.
I want to be free...
I just want to fly.
I want to leave everything behind
Just end up where I end up
Just a backpack, a guitar, and my bible
and just fly

I want to go
... to just go
I want to be gone and...
and...
and I don't know...
but I hope to figure it out while I am gone
for now...
I just know I want to go.

I know I want to go
I feel I need to go
I am scared
Afraid to leave it behind...
and come back to find it all gone
Afraid to find I always wanted you,
afraid I will look back at what I don't have anymore...
and to realize I want it...
but now...
well, you know now...

But in this current season,
Being here is destroying my character,
which only reveals my character.
I long to be in a place...
to be in arms...
where I no longer have to think
yet still, thoughts come naturally

I just want to leave
I just want to go
I just want to fly,

but where can I fly to... that i will not follow?

useless vine wreath


I sat reading by the beach this evening (because my island is awesome like that), I was becoming lost in the solitude, then I felt an urge to look down. and that is when I saw it (see photo for reference). My initial reaction was to disregard it and I returned to reading. But then there was an uncontrollable urge to draw my attention back to it. Why? It was just a useless wreath of vines. However I became overwhelmed with the knowledge that someone created this.

It made me think: 'someone had been here before'. I know you are thinking to yourself 'well duh!!! it is a public beach'. That's not the point, the point is someone WAS in this very spot. I closed my eyes and I began to wonder who it could have been. I pictured a young lady in her early twenties she was fair skin and slightly tanned. She had long flowing blond hair and wore a white linen shirt with matching white linen pants. There was a young man seated beside her of similar complexion and dark hair. I must admit it was more of a challenge to visualize the guy ( please save your wise comments). He wore board shorts, blue and white, with an indistinguishable pattern that alternated between the two colors, and a green shirt (he was not very good at matching).

They sat together becoming engrossed in their conversation. She was fidgety, she did not like to sit still doing nothing. So she began to braid a wreath of vines that she unconsciously plucked from the sand as they continued to talk.

I couldn't help but to realize that this was the first time I gave any thought to the fact that I was in a place that was visited by someone prior to my being there. So often I overlook the existence of others and the trail they have left behind as evidence of that existence.

More often than never we approach life with the same dismissive attitude. We do not ackowledge that others have been here. We lead solitary lifestyles that don't take into account the existence of those around us and how it may impact our own. A concept likened to that of the science behind the Sensory receptors in our skin that are designed to recieve input and send electrical messages through a series of winding nerve causeways and synapses to relay a message to our brain that takes in that message and responds in like manner to let us know appropriate responses to each sensory input we recieve from our environment. However, somewhere in our own social nerve network we have become numbed. We no longer perceive that external stimuli.

I often feel lonely, as if the traces of my being constantly go unnoticed by those that tread over the shadows of the essence of my reality. But how many people have I allowed to experience comparable feelings of rejection by a similar flip of the same coin taken from my own purse?

As I walked away, brushing the residue of the disfigured rock I used as a chair off of my buttocks, I had in my hand the 'useless' vine wreath. Someone left something behind, and it did not go unnoticed. I also realized something, as I walked away, I left nothing behind but took the memories and the evidence of another with me.

Sometimes we worry that we go unnoticed, but what do we leave behind to be remembered by? What legacy have we emblazoned on the walls of our once was? Have we painted murals we want to be remembered by? Have we painted murals at all?

But that is the topic of another note... for now I will just enjoy the company of one anonymous, 'useless', vine wreath.